Thursday, July 5, 2012

Demons prefer suicide to murder

In the old days, gangsters simply shot their victims dead; but, as so succinctly put by Jon Harrington, the then-leader of a demon-allied group of gang-stalkers in 2006, "We prolong peoples' inevitable demise," presumably, so victims will do the work of getting disposed of for them.
LISTEN | This Jon Harrington quote and other gang-stalker quotes can be heard in Gang-stalker eludes to demons in confession to crimes.
In fact, in February 2006, when the month the four-month siege of my home by the gang-stalkers began, I overheard Jon Harrington talking to someone who I thought was using a voice-changer at the time, "Don't worry! He'll kill himself in two days!"

(That voice changer wasn't a voice changer, as I came to discover; rather, it was the voice of a demon that is still after my life, and that still yells at his human underlings for not causing me constant stress when so assigned. The last time I heard it yelling at someone, he was yelling at Long and the man shown in Man Conceals Ginseng Root Demon Up His Sleeve.)

This method, on which the tagline of The Life of a Demoniac blog is based (i.e., "My inevitable demise, daily"), is quite effective, when you consider the extent of psychological damage that can be achieved by just one act of rape (in my case, there have been over four), and especially when you consider the demon factor.
READ | Mad as Hell: Demon-induced trauma likely to blame for PTSD
And, after the constant harassment by gang-stalkers non-stop for months on end in 2006 and family abandonment (read Grandma, Long assign blame for others' demonic behavior; read also Family stalls plan for respite, in spite of injury and suffering at hands of demons)—and then by demons, some of which is described on this site—you can see why I made an attempt on my own life in January 2009, which resulted in a near-coma for a week in intensive care, shortly after San Jose Police Officer Miguel Flores broke three bones for no other apparent reason than that provided by the prophesy (voices) demons minutes prior, specifically, that they were "angry."
READ | Voices Demons: Stupid People Make Us Angry and Stalkers from Hell: The Psychology of the Voices Demons
In the attempt, I disassembled a razor provided by the jail, and used the blade to gouge two three-inch gashes in the vein of my right arm, after having swallowed the nearly 300 ibuprofen and aspirin I had collected each week from commissary and other inmates during the first month-and-a-half I was there.
Sometimes I came to regret that the attempt was unsuccessful, especially since this particular custody stay lasted for almost three years afterwards; it was an indication that, in spite of my best efforts, I would not succeed in stopping the onslaught of demon-influenced aggravated mayhem and conflagration of egregious acts over the years that had beleaguered me so greatly.

On the other hand, I am fortunate to have the present ability and potential to address this issue in ways I never thought possible; and, having recently discovered that my childhood nightmares and associated monsters were actually real, I now have what I consider to be the God-given opportunity to confront the terrors of my early years, face-to-face.

In this video, members of the gang-stalkers who attacked me speak of the dangers and challenges I faced at their hands, and the hands of other criminals:
This video is a collection of quotes from a series of much longer recorded conversations with others, in which I describe the pain I felt during the time I was under attack by the gang-stalkers, and is followed by the taunting of Jon Harrington in a voicemail to me at the end:

Following is a transcript of a conversation with Josh, in which he describes some of the tactics that were employed against me in order to cause a suicide attempt:

Okay, so, they were using tactics to try and get me to kill myself. So, what tactics were they using to try and get me to kill myself?
[mumbles] I don't really want to talk about that.
The voices?
The voices. When people hears voices and nobody around them does...
That's scary, man.
JoshThat's scary.
Yes, I know!
You know what I'm saying? [mumbles] And, and...
Go ahead.
That's what you said, huh?
Okay, okay...
The voices were really scary. So, they figured out that the voices would be very scary for me. And, everybody could hear them; but, they were just acting like they couldn't, right?
JoshNo, no, no...
So, did they just tape record...okay! Go ahead. 'No, no, no' what?
JoshUh, [unintelligible].
Okay, so they use special techniques to make it where it's either directed at you of you have to be kind of trying to hear the, you know, pitch and all that kind of stuff. If I isolated it with that software, other people would be able to hear it, right? Could you hear anything out of, er, yesterday? Out of that stuff?
JoshI did not hear it.
Okay. So, then, what other techniques?
Who...who was involved in these voices? Who was involved?
Oh! Oh! Wha...I think I picked it up. Uh, wait a minute...I've got it right here.
JoshUh, did you put it in the bathroom?
I got, it's infectious. So, basically, okay...who was involved? Who...who was doing the voices?
JoshCan't tell you that.
Josh'Cuz...'cuz [unintelligible]
JoshI [unintelligible] fucking delu[sional], bro.
Okay, what else...what other tactics besides voices? Or, is there more to say about the voices?
Is there more to say about the voices? Or, do you want to move on to the next tactic?
JoshUm [unintelligible].
Okay. What else...what there more to...first of all, is there more information I need know about the voices; or, [unintelligible] do we need to move on to the next tactic?
JoshNo, 'cuz you know why? It's not a fucking problem anymore.
Okay. So, let's move on to the next tactic.
That's why...that's why I'm asking you to tell me [unintelligible]; because, it's not something I can prove; so, it's not like knowing their names would even matter. You know what I'm saying? But, it's...forget the names! Is there anything else about the voices that I need to know? Where were they putting...where were...the only people...was it also electronic equipment? Were they doing it from, like, vans? Like ...that...that....
JoshNo. No.
They were doing it from underneath the house, or, in...doing it under...were they doing it from the sewers?
Josh[shakes head no]
No? They were never down there? Ever? Okay. Um, I have...what else? What other tactics besides the voices? See, I knew...I knew...
Josh[unintelligible] always thinking there's someone there, you know?
'Cuz there was someone there.
So, so this whole paranoia thing wasn't...was, you know, justifiable paranoia?

You can hear the rest of this conversation, plus more, in these recordings:

VIDEOS | Demons move walls to punish, control, frighten

If you ever watched Demons Move Wall to Injure Hand, you may have wondered, "Why would a demon bother with moving an entire wall when it's mad, when it could just as easily move the human it's mad at?"
Prophecy—or Voices—demons warned me prior to moving this wall that they would hurt my hand (Watch 
Here's the best answer I can give, after having been exposed to the minds of demons on a continual basis for nearly six years now: When you don't give a demon what it wants, its usually because you went off and tried to do something it didn't think of or didn't think of for you, or you set off to do something that was your own idea (and that you had an idea) and you did it (or tried to do it) without asking or mentioning it first, or you simply thought of an idea—in your own head—and wouldn't stop thinking about it, or the idea you thought of was so offensive to its sensibilities that there just is no recovery from having thought it.

Or, it might simply be because you didn't do what it said to do or think what it said to think.
NOTE | Telepathy is not just the communication standard among demonic entities, it is the most commonly used and best-developed of a demon's seven senses.
From a demon perspective, there are at least five problems with all of these things, which must be solved to the exclusion of even its own survival (that is to say, your own will and initiative have threatened it in these ways):
  1. You failed to give it what it wanted;
  2. You failed to recognize its authority and power;
  3. You failed to learn what it wants in spite of its best efforts at submission and obedience training; and,
  4. You failed to yield to said authority and power.
A wall is slid out of the depths of a demonic portal by an uninvited guest to my apartment (Watch Oliver Prepares Portal for Demonic Transit)
How does a demon solve these kinds of problems? Naturally, just as one might expect: with a fearful display of force. And, what would be more fearful than moving a wall in your path to keep you from going somewhere it didn't want you to go?

That's happened on numerous occasions to me. For example, one night last winter, I tried to exit my apartment grounds on the east side of the business-residence that sits between my old apartment and Julian Street, much to the ire of the prophecy demons. Besides continually transporting objects in my path, they moved one of the brick walls of an add-on structure that narrows the path between the house and an adjacent wooden fence until the brick wall extended all the way to the fence.
READ | For more about demons teleporting objects, read Voices Demons play keep-away with cellphone.
They moved this brick wall as if it were one of those Japanese paper-and-bamboo walls, just like they slid the wall out of a demonic portal in Oliver Prepares Portal for Demonic Transit. That wall is a supporting wall on which the only door and window in my apartment are situated.

Doing things this way, demons believe, helps them "make a point," the near-mantra of the prophesy demons.

As a result of this type of psychotic behavior, I have spent much time trying to learn to make a point of my own, and time learning how to take such things like this in stride. Until I accomplish this, however, and can get to a point where I no longer attempt suicide, I'll keep these videos handy to remind me of what I'm dealing with, just in case I get silly and forget that going to the grocery store whenever I need food is a by-permission only activity and demon-graced privilege.
HISTORICAL NOTE | I was in 24-hour intensive care in a near-coma for one week in January, 2009, after having attempted suicide; I slit two three-inch gashes in an arm vein and swallowed over 300 ibuprofen and aspirin tablets. I had just been beaten by San Jose Police Office Miguel Flores at the behest of demons only a month prior, and had been harassed by demons on a non-stop basis for years, as well.

How demonic entities enter our realm (and the injury they can cause)

These five videos collectively show how one human loosed a demonic entity, called a sucker demon, into our realm, after allowing his demonic friends to use a hyperdimensional portal, located at my old apartment; they also show just how dangerous this type of activity can be, as evidenced by the injuries I sustained by the sucker demon.
  1. The human, whose name is Oliver, prepares the way for the opening of a hyperdimensional portal that opens in my apartment floor:
Watch Oliver Prepares Portal for Demonic Transit
  1. After preparing the portal, and positioning the chair next to the adjacent wall, Oliver assists two demons, who clearly did not use the front (and only door) crawl out of it before going into a portal in an adjacent wall.
The first demon crosses from the portal in the floor to the one in an adjacent wall...
...right before a second one does the same
Amazingly, a demon can be seen sliding the wall with the window and door on it out of the depths of the portal itself.
  1. A third video shows a sucker demon, which must have crawled out of the floor portal, slithering into Oliver's backpack. If it weren't for the odd motion—and fact that it flies up into the air—it would look like one of the backpack's straps:
  1. The same sucker demon showed up later in my bed at another apartment:
Watch Sucker Demon in My Bed
  1. This sucker demon—and others—are later used to cause injury to my head, as is described in this recap of a previous post:
New photos reveal the aftermath of yet another attack by sucker demons, which, for several days, have been piercing the skin and bone of my head with their hot, needle-like appendages, causing deformities to my skull and constant pain (see also Voices Demons use sucker demons to deform skull, bore holes).

Insert site of a sucker demon with its hot, needle-like appendage, which disfigured bone and burned skin tissue
For over three days, I have been fending off the near-constant attacks of these worm-like demons, who were ordered by the Voices Demons to "masturbate a whole in my 'noggin." The Voices Demons have eluded to this eventuality for years; and, now that it has come to pass, one can only dread how the other threats that they have issued will play out.

Deformities in my skull caused by sucker demons are evident
Since a cloaked sucker demon cannot be seen or felt—except under certain circumstances—I had to wait until I felt the tell-tale burning of its hot, needle-like appendage before prying them off of me with pinched fingers, which crackled as they came into contact. It was partly effective, even though my scalp is dotted with red pinpoint scabs leftover from failed attempts to penetrate the skin.

Pinpoint red marks indicate failed attempts by the sucker demons to insert the above-described appendage
Although the attacks have escalated ten-fold over the past several days, it is now evident that sucker demons have been at work for quite some time. Three years ago, I noticed through the thin skin of my eyes that holes had been bored into the bone that comprises my eye sockets. I also noticed that the shape of my head had changed rapidly; comparing photographs just a month-and-a-half apart confirmed that for me:

December 2008, immediately before incarceration by the Voices Demons
March 2012, after three years of incarceration by Voices Demons
Less than two months later, after Voices Demons escalate sucker-demon attacks
At the time, I was unaware of any entity other than the Voices Demons. (I had not yet been made aware that they were affiliated with the demons of my childhood, as they billed themselves as good spirits at first, in spite of their abusive acts). As a result, I could not make a determination as to the cause.

Apparently, just like there are side effects from having been drained of blood while I sleep—also done by sucker demons per the direction of the Voices Demons—which makes me feel tired and weak—there are side effects to having your bone tissue pierced by a sucker demon's cloak and whatever-you-call-it that enables it to move through sheets, clothing and walls, specifically, mutilated bone tissue. What was once a smooth p├íte is now riddled with large bumps made of bone beneath the skin. The sight with the most visible skin damage is especially raised.

Raised and deformed bone underneath the scabbed and burned site of sucker-demon drilling
I can only imagine what has been done to the brain tissue underneath.
UPCOMING | Video showing sucker demons attached to my skull, while anchored to the ceiling from above.
In addition to mutating bone, a sucker demon can temporarily soften it. If you grab one in order to get it off you or out of your bed, and grab it hard enough to penetrate its outer gelatinous skin (which is really, really hard) an energy that you can feel shoots up your hand and arm. Insodoing, your nerves stop functioning and your muscles go slack. If you keep trying to squeeze, your bones will pop.