The Testimony of a Demoniac. My inevitable salvation, explained.

How a demoniac at-war factors Jesus in his decision to live or die is an interesting one, and, now facing this very decision, I've decided that these two Bible verses better apply:

For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it. (Matthew 16:25)

...and...

For none of us lives to himself, and none of us dies to himself. For if we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord's. For to this end Christ died and lived again, that he might be Lord both of the dead and of the living. (Romans 14:7-9) 

If they didn't apply, I would probably choose life—just to give myself more time in this world to become relevant to it. But, I digress.

Back to this big decision I have to make today: whether to stay in Indiana or to head back into a full-scale war for my life and that of my little family (Long and Scratchen) in California, which sometimes literally looks like this:

Me (in essence), on a good day in California

To get the real picture, replace the old man in the drawing with me, and then imagine these demons instead of the drawn ones:

See what a hobgoblin demon looks like and what one of my possessing demons look like; find out whether I deserve it, too

This is literally a life-or-death decision; but, fear is not a factor.

NOTE | I've said this before in BIBLE | Fear was not a factor for David and BIBLE | Fear should not be a factor for you.

Perfect love casts out fear
On what may be my last day of the relative peace and safety Indiana provides, I consider in my decision five facts that have brought (and will continue to bring) me joy and hope in that otherwise disparate and horrible situation, which are detailed in this blog (hopefully, they'll work for you in your life, too):

1. Jesus can—and will—cleanse and sanctify me when I ask, and I feel great strides made in that regard, particularly with respect to my sexuality and the lifestyle that accompanied it [see The (tweaker sex) Life of a (bag whore) Demoniac; see also James 5:16].

Lord, if thou wilt, thou canst make me clean. And Jesus put forth his hand, and touched him, saying, I will; be thou clean. (Matthew 8:2-3 KJV)

What, then, should I fear? [Romans 8:31]

2. Jesus has the power to (and has) forgiven the sins that had crippled me with grief and guilt [see The (tweaker sex) Life of a (bag whore) Demoniac; see also James 5:16].

Son, be of good cheer; thy sins be forgiven thee. (Matthew 9:2 KJV)

What, then, should I fear? [Romans 8:31]

3. Jesus lives up to His promise, daily, in that He is my moral guide (He calls me), helping me to maintain a clear conscience whenever I'm faced with the difficult decisions that are commonplace in a problem like the one I face—even though I am an abominable sinner [see The (tweaker sex) Life of a (bag whore) Demoniac; see also James 5:16].

They that be whole need not a physician, but they that are sick. But go ye and learn what that meaneth, I will have mercy, and not sacrifice: for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance. (Matthew 9:12-13 KJV)

What, then, should I fear? [Romans 8:31]

4. God has heard my prayers for rest and peace, and He has answered them—repeatedly—whenever I needed help in times of danger, and whenever I needed provisions for battle or daily life [see Back home again to Indiana; see also Another iPhone, destroyed; another iPhone, purchased].

Blessed be the Lord, because he hath heard the voice of my supplications. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him. (Psalms 28:6-7 KJV)

What, then, should I fear? [Romans 8:31]

5. God rescued me from the incarceration perpetrated by my enemies in times past [search for incarcerate].

Mine enemies chased me sore, like a bird, without cause. They have cut off my life in the dungeon, and cast a stone upon me. Waters flowed over mine head; then I said, I am cut off. I called upon thy name, O Lord, out of the low dungeon. Thou hast heard my voice: hide not thine ear at my breathing, at my cry. Thou drewest near in the day that I called upon thee: thou saidst, Fear not. O Lord, thou hast pleaded the causes of my soul; thou hast redeemed my life. (Lamentations 3:52-58 KJV)

Who, then, should I fear? [Hebrews 13:6]

NOTE | Where I hope to accomplish by being cleansed from sin by Jesus' saving blood is a mature spiritual self that is ready to receive the deeper knowledge of God. (1 Corinthians 3:1-5) I believe it'll help; and, I believe I won't be truly motivated in a Hoosier hideaway without the fires of Hell nipping at my heels (or have a need for it or truly appreciate its value).

Here are other trade-offs I have to consider in my decision to stay or go:

1. Bedding. In doing the honorable thing, I'll be trading a good bed for a bad one, surrounded by bad people, in that my shelter bed will be (and was) a bunk, and will be (and was) near demon people, who may (and did) attempt to blind me; on the contrary, my Indiana bed is (and will continue to be) relatively demon-free, and near a demonic weapons-free bathroom [see VIDEO/PICS | Demonic "bombs" define territory and confinement areas]:

Better than a sidewalk, better than a shelter bunk

2. Food. Because there'll be virtually none in California, Indiana is very enticing when I consider my hunger:

Mom, Jack (mom's friend), and Grandma, at Denny's

Mom and me, at McDonald's

Aunt Goldie (87 years old) and me, at Cracker Barrel

3. Family. See above and below.

4. Church. There is no loyal congregation of any kind in demon-plagued North Bay of California; and, the rule is, outside the body of Christ, outside his sphere of protection. In Indiana, that will not be the case:

Grandma and me, outside of Cornerstone Church of Christ, which she and my now-deceased grandfather helped start

Demons indicate receptivity to California return with symbol of violence
As I was packing to (possibly) return to California—I hadn't yet made up my mind—I found a stylized '8' made out of elastic string inside my suitcase:

This symbol is used by the demon horde/pool, OCCT, to herald each new onslaught of violence [see   PICS | Demon horde 'OCCT' flashes stylized '8' in shadow, body hair; search for stylized eight;].