The Prayer Life of a Demoniac. A collection of prayers by one afflicted and otherwise possessed by demons, their correctness notwithstanding, the joy of being heard by God, nonetheless, being my strength to stand—these, in addition to the years-old post Psalm 140 sums up most earnest prayer:
- Part of the conditioning of and plan for destruction of a Voices Demons' victim is punishment for refusing demands, which is primarily for doing anything other than listening to them talk, and then invariably for improperly listening when you do (which may constitute merely forming an unexpressed opinion about what they have said). The ritual of demand-punishment is repeated every waking minute of a victim's day, during which this—or similar—can be heard: We don't get ignored; give him every noggin' crunch I have!
Today, the Voices Demons' ability to carry out any of the sort of physical violence typically meted out has been grossly undermined and diminished by the power embargo (even if slightly elevated above what is normal by the current moon phase and only one-week-old institution); however, such threats, when coupled with an extensive history of abuse, incites anger in a victim, which serves as a provocation to loss of self-control (a fruit of the Holy Spirit). This relentless hammering at one's tolerance and strength is intended to mold a victim into the kind of person a demon can more easily and fully exploit, having created a man the opposite of the mighty conqueror God meant him to be:
He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, he who rules his [own] spirit than he who takes a city.
— Proverbs 16:32
- In response to this very scenario, on Saturday, August 15th, 2015, I prayed to God for a molding of my image and character by Him only for as long as I remain in my righteousness (in right-standing by obedience)—and never by any demonic forces such as the Voices Demons. I feel that if it is not an entitlement, it is at least a reasonable expectation, and, accordingly, my prayer (through gritted teeth) went something like this:
To the God Most High, For as long as I remain in my righteousness, I pray that You and only You mold and shape me going forward, while thwarting every effort on the part of evil from doing so.
Since then, I have faced multiple temptations to sin by and through two attacks by dreamweaver demons as I slept (whose horde is a few members shy these days due to melted faces, I hear), which were meant to incite drug use and unlawful sexual relations; and, in my poverty (for which demons and their people have taken continual and publicly broadcasted credit) was tempted to steal milk. I'm sober, and have led no man to his grave [Proverbs 5:3-22]; I paid for the milk, as well as Long's lunch, too [Matthew 5:44].
- Moreover, the Voices Demons are still at work; but, with God's proven track record for the answering of all prayers worthy, I'm going to remain as patient as I can:
Because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
— Romans 5:3-4
Take the name of Jesus with you,
Child of sorrow and of woe;
It will joy and comfort give you,
Take it then where'er you go.
The first time I prayed like I meant it (as an adult, and in 2008), it went something like this:
"I don't know where this is all going, or how it's all going to end up, but wherever I go, and whatever happens, I don't want to be anywhere near it without You."
I didn't even mean to pray, I wasn't even thinking about God at the time; my soul just said it, all the sudden, and without any indication beforehand.
These verses are the answer to that prayer; God beat me to the punch by 2,000 years, it would seem:
“Wherein God, willing more abundantly to shew unto the heirs of promise the immutability of his counsel, confirmed it by an oath: That by two immutable things, in which it was impossible for God to lie, we might have a strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold upon the hope set before us: Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and stedfast, and which entereth into that within the veil; Whither the forerunner is for us entered, even Jesus, made an high priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.” Hebrews 6:17-20 KJV http://bible.com/1/heb.6.17-20.kjv
Satan [i.e., the "Jason Fisher" Voices Demons, a demon using my cousin's voice], said this to me on May 9th, 2016:
I don't let people [i.e., me] set goals. The first sign of a craving for drugs, I'm going to whoop it up like never before.
I don't want people [i.e., me] making connections. I forbid you to write anyone in prison.His retarded human supporters concurred by saying:
They [i.e., their victims, meaning me in this case, but also any others, generally] don't even get to be involved in all their options.
Lord, help me not just find a true friend, but to be a brother to someone; after all, you cannot fully appreciate what you have in a friend if you're not a good friend yourself:
A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. — Proverbs 17:17That, and I never ask for anything more than I'm willing to give...
And as you wish that others would do to you, do so to them. — Luke 6:31...and I'm willing to write those prison letters in order to extend my friendship to those who are now suffering, no matter the suffering. It can be worth it in the end, because love is all there is, all we could have, and all we could want. Based of your Son's sacrifice, I surmise that you will be behind this prayer 100%, having better than anyone ever shown what love is by and through it:
Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. — John 15:13 ESVWhen Your Son said, in essence, "I lay down my life for those I have yet to meet, and even for those who now persecute me, because I believe in giving love every chance I can give it," that was all I needed to know about the vital importance of connecting with others and the power of love. Because I have yet to make a sacrifice on that level of any kind for anyone, it must be that I have not yet ascertained or plumbed the love's depths to the fullest extent; I pray for otherwise, and for guidance along the Way by the One who has (that is to say, protection and strength against any force, internal or external, that may distract or dissuade me from my stated goal).
In Christ's Name,